After my mother

So wednesday feb. 11th was the month anniversary of my mothers death. That's almost all I have to say. I feel numb, like I just don't want to face this. I dont want to live with out her. but I have to, for my sister, and for my husband. He loves me, but I feel as though I will never be good enuff for him. Ever. Theres so much going on in my mind, I'm done for the nite.